(011) evicted without notice

most of the time, it's too hard to even think about what i want to be saying because i'm too busy waiting for a sign to point me in the right direction - to tell me where to go next - but usually, nothing ever happens. the air is filled with silence like when you're watching a movie - except the actors and actresses don't know their lines, but they try their best anyway. so i stare in the dark as i feel my own heart beating faster and faster, but it slows back down when they turn on the lights and open the doors. we can finally leave now. the nightmare has ended, but the fear never will. i will always remember how the days used to disappear, and the mirrors would show everything that they know. it was like an eviction that came without notice so now i make my bed every morning i wake up because i want to assure myself that nobody has to help. i will do this on my own no matter how long it takes for you to start forgetting these words i never said.