(084) insufficient funds and mistaken transactions

i find myself becoming inundated with an unsatisfiable want.

i find myself in the future, talking to trees and directing traffic.

let this be a record of my insufficient funds and mistaken transactions.

i remember one christmas, there were lots of presents under the tree. i was so excited. i thought i would be floored with the surprises that awaited me, and one after another, they were unwrapped. after everything was opened and over, i realized that i couldn't help but feel floored by one big surprise. that surprise just turned out to be overwhelming disappointment. and as the years passed, that theme has been recurring throughout all facets of my life to this day.

and for some reason, i keep thinking things will change.