(0127) the end of a chapter pt. 2

the line has to end somewhere, but it's not going to end there. it was a blindsided hit-and-run you never paid for.

camera flash the suspect was identified but got away. fell through the cracks. disappeared.

it's too late now. it's too late. heaven is on fire. because of you. because of you.

your actions tell a different a story. a story of forgetting.

(0126) the end of a chapter pt. 1

remember that the punctuation isnt necessary in the letters you type to the sky because it cant read it doesnt really have to it knows

innocence is catastrophic innocence is lovely rewinding and fastforwarding pushing and pulling

remember that the grass is only there for us the sky is only there for us i long to help show you the meaning behind life behind love behind the sunrise and behind the sunset

dont skip over this part dont

ive got a feeling and it wont go away ive got a feeling and it wont go away

in his dreams he finds all the answers he needs and when she cries her tears dont remember anything

ive got a secret but i dont know if i can keep it

all missing information will be disregarded in a heartbeat of fear

so true so real the dog is chasing its tail


why?

(0125) pretend you are invisible

no more. down the rabbit hole we go. how soon that we were dead; not yet alive.

say it to my face.. but you won't. just go home and talk on the phone.

go spend more money at the mall because, you know, looks are important. so important.

but the jaws are closing in on you, and anytime now, they're going to snap right down. pity yourself.

and don't wait up. keep going until you collapse because i don't even plan on participating.

the liquid swells out of time in my head but swirls right down my throat.

out of the accident, i cease to find my direction in the smoke. can't stop laughing.

was i really hallucinating from a lack of sleep yesterday, or am i hallucinating the rest of the time? can't tell a difference anyway.

tonight - i think tonight will do.

(0124) distant exterior

a photographic memory and say goodbye.

so many people. the colors fade out all over again.

i can't see anymore. i can't see a purpose to all of the constant bullshit.

it's too confusing. this isn't beautiful. this is ugly. your fucking commercials. your fucking looks. everyone's obsession with american idol. everyone's obsession with oprah and dr. phil. this isn't pretty. it's fucking pathetic and it pisses me off.

yeah... maybe if i was rich, i wouldn't have such thoughts.

just a little more money. go fuck yourself.

(0123) exception 8

thinking.

indirectly.

fold it up.

i'm too busy to blend in. and you're too busy - well... exercising. conditioning yourself - for what anyway? my hands have nothing to hold, but at least there's nothing to lose. if i keep falling, maybe you'll notice, but that's something i no longer care about. sometimes you forget who really cares. and why should it matter anyway? i don't know. but i still believe in you and probably always will. everything will fall into place. everything.

(0122) progression

figuring out the distance between lies and truth. your opinion never mattered. your opinion never mattered. get an education, but it won't get you ahead... falling from the top - it's a long way down.

if you would just try to open your eyes.

just try... because so far i've gained everything you've lost. and it's not even that hard.

it's time to stop fucking around.

it's time to evolve.

(0121) hallucinations without truth

falling out from the bottom of irreconcilable differences. hanging over the last signs of a false positive.

at this rate, nothing will ever start making sense.

hallucinations without fact. hallucinations without truth.

by the time i finally showed up, i was much too late.

replicating feeling without meaning is a lost cause. take this shovel and start digging until the sky turns red. my dream has already ended.

my name is scab, and i'm from the future.

dogs and cats are trying to tell us everything we don't want to be told.

if you let go of me, i'll never forget.

(0120) don't wake up

the senseless piercings of guilt hang over this cold air as if the breaths we took in only equaled the amount of pain and frustration we could bear to deal with until we perished. your hopes will never save you from your lack of understanding. in the next 8 seconds, i'll be gone forever. sometimes we all make mistakes, but this time isn't one of those times. into the eternal remainders i'll always fall. don't wake up this time. don't wake up. you'll just regret it.

(0119) saturday nights

i realized something tonight.

if only we could say what we're thinking at all times.

you only see what you want to see. fuck you.

(0118) impaled and abbreviated

it's so groundbreaking, but you don't even have any notion of that in your head right now because you choose to be ignorant. you choose to care about only yourself. it's so revolutionary and thought-provoking, but you choose to ignore it and to run around in circles.. going nowhere. it's so beautiful, but you choose not to see it.

"i notice how you waste no time making your way across the room. you leave a wake of tongues still waving after you. it isn't no coincidence where you finally choose to stand...

...you look at me so boldly now. you have no lack of confidence. it's just those lessons on subtlety you missed. i know you dream of saving me like i'm some plane that you could land, but when you fly you will be leaving your man."

(0117) looking around

in the end, i will rise out of the ashes. in the end, i will take back what i lost. no more question marks... just answers. forgive me for i have sinned. no i haven't. i'm not sorry. i shouldn't be sorry, and i never will be. this is how we were created. to say that any part of nature is imperfect is to say that you made a mistake - thus making you imperfect... making you not who you claim you are. a fake.. a fraud.. a deceiver.

therein lies the contradiction of everything you tell me to believe.

i don't want to live against my nature. i want to live in harmony with it.

i'm going to live how i want because i was given a free will, and i choose not to waste it. you've made your decisions, and i'll make my decisions... and they'll be the right decisions. they only can be. if you disagree, it's not my problem.