(0164) radiant summer

the jealous know no boundaries. wrapped up in daydreams. let us have the consolation. we deserve it more. the past still growing inside of you, and you can't stop it. begs at the intersection but no more. why? because there's no way to erase it. to undo it. to take back. so i left. disappeared, and i'll never be seen or heard from again. you'll understand. you'll understand in time. sky is red in all my dreams. you don't care so stop reading.

something's not right. i can sense it. slowly building up. summer's sun - soon pouring through my veins. mimic the beautiful and steal from the wealthy. all trying to leave something behind. baskets of dead flowers and four-hundred miles away. i wrote the ending, and it came true. all bets are off unless i see some blood.

take a number; wait your turn. forget everything that you've ever learned. if you're on the brink of insanity, you'll need to know the rules. past and present calamity goes and flows with dignity. in the end, it might be hard to see your shadow on the floor. too many things i can't ignore.

fifty hours worth of dialogue was never in the plan. never thought that this could happen; never thought she'd understand. it's the most obvious coincidence, but it comes with no demand. so i'm feeling kind of anxious because i don't know now where to go. i better find a pair of gloves for when it snows.

some people go down wasting away, but the rest of us just bite the fucking bullet.

(0163) an accidental compromise

the silence of the entire world. twenty-seven photographs. their faces say it all.

and all i can do is watch in agony and humility. and then i realize...

i'm the most selfish human being i've ever known. only nature.

wanted to navigate the stars, but it wasn't possible so i left it up to fate and consequence. amazing.

and love is not blind. it is your disbelief that is.

tonight... i dance with the devil.

(0162) never see the same again

someone's dying. did you think that the children would no longer play? but i'm just trying to live without distraction if there's a way. in the end you say you don't have a problem, but we're here waiting tables and pretending to talk with ourselves. with each other.

are you different? since the last time i saw you, you don't seem well. but you're not different. i guess it was just something you were trying to sell. from the ordinary to the unknown, i'm well ahead and adjusted to the cameras that roam all around... without making a sound.

there's only two minutes left.
and if we hurry, we'll have plenty time to catch our breaths. too many times we have slept... through hurricanes and bombs falling on our tv sets.

i am sifting through the ash and the sand; can't find any gold, but she is here, and that's enough. and i am waiting for the war to end, but there'll be many more tears and more volcanoes to erupt.

i'm going out to build a fire. there won't be anymore time to say that i'm a liar, but i don't care. it's not my prob. you'll work it out and and wear the glove. because it fits. it fits so well. it's not like fate has bid you farewell. you think you're better, but that's okay. i'd rather be nothing and just decay. block out the sun. take in the snow. i'm crawling out of six windows that all got stuck and wouldn't move. i won't be counting on you to prove that you were right. so blow it up. walked out alive and poured you a cup of cheap, red wine so we can live as long as we want and never worry about being apart. i'll blink my eyes and never see the same again. so new and clean. so here's the truth. simple and plain. i'm starting over before it rains. we all play this game; say "blind are the ones who will never fold paper." so carry on. so carry on. so carry on. so carry on...