(0171) forgot to remind you

in bed with the enemy. constant agony calls. newborn regret. too much sugar. too sweet. i saw emptiness. i saw death, and it nearly took me too. buried the hatchet somehow though. energy dissipating in dreams. phone call i never remember five hours later. cold sweats and warm regrets. abortion gone wrong. fill myself up with fast food whenever possible and wait for the heart attack fifty years later. charts and diagrams fail to show me a purpose. flatlined forever. only the stars to wish upon now. like it would even matter. can't see when the sky folds in half. can only feel. immune to the television's radiation. home shopping network. shoot me in the head.

i want to be 50 million different people mixed into one.