(0178) without a doubt

we salvage the dead and pity the homeless. walk around in pools of blood empty of fear. don't hear the regrets. don't even hear the memories. everything a shadow of what it used to be because she knows it's only a matter of time. conscious awakening. infinity redefined but only for a moment. no pun intended. about to form a reaction. saturn's moons are aligning in my heart. i seemingly start to forget about the future when i realize the past once was the future. such a waste. maybe they were right. maybe the best is yet to come. either way is okay, but something needs to change. i've been waiting for the longest time. just send him to bed. tell him to never wake up. i hear that it's pretty hot over there. where is that circle that everyone was talking about? i only see beginnings and endings, and i'd rather stay up all night and sleep all day. they said it was too late anyway. she comes up and never comes down, and it keeps him from turning around. but we don't care in the slightest bit. it's like taking one step forward and two back. it's exactly how it should be. i show up as a ghost and leave as a kindred spirit. so much for the afterparty. i'm blacking out before i even realize it. caught between two worlds and two realities. he walks off without feeling a thing, but in the end it's just a passing occurrence. the ocean turns over while giving confirmation to my premonitions. no colors anymore. just a sea of gray.