(0183) sidewalk vertigo

a toast for this misery. finally, a conclusion. and as we part, this ocean splits in half. fell back to the bottom in seconds and patriotism can kiss my ass. feverpitch silence overcomes the loudest of screams. concentrate on your failures, and you'll find the answers to everything. four more miles, and you'll find nothing. i look back to see everything fading away. it was all in my head they said. and so it was. and i have the words to prove it. pity comes out of empathy and blood comes out of open veins faster than you can feel it. but something's missing - the sun. coldness ensues. leads to our destiny. a happy ending. dad says this money should prove how much he loves me. oh, the modern world. thanks for nothing. tree limbs torn down. electriticy still flowing. instant paranoia. lacking a supply of real food so i reach for the cereal, the ramen noodles, and poptarts most everyday. a tapered sample of life on minimum wage. and everyone's invited. fault lines growing more all the time. nixon would be infinitely proud. at least we have fun. at least we don't have tainted souls and tethered hearts. the shadow of something that was never there followed me home last night, but i slept it off. cigarettes and alcohol never made it go away. urgency depleted. convoluted like this air.