(0218) forever ago

darling, you'll always know it's true. if the shoe does not quite fit, keep wearing it. my candle wick is running low. if the rose dies, keep hold of it. nothing will ever stop us now. if the cows come home, we'll flee from here. they said that love could not be free, but if we can't agree, we'll stay right here. different geography is not what i need.

please help me bury my dear friends.
i don't see them anymore
so they're
dead
to
me.

blue sky, blue sky and a sheet of ice. reaction came too late, and i was off floating in space. my face, my face is turning quick. don't look right now. i can't feel anything. empty the garbage on the way. better walk the dog and try not to awake. no sound, no sound is in my ear. i'm calling off for life and i've got no desire to look back. i saw myself in half.

please help me live out my life.
i don't know myself as much
and everyone else is
dying
too
soon.

the accident was all my fault. i guess i shouldn't place blame, but it's getting hard to see.

(0217) directions

and now you've gone and done it again. this silent plea for a world free of calamity for just one moment. ain't gonna happen tonight. other plans. if i had only heard you the first time... because seriously, it's almost like a movie with a good ending. feels like living in an alternate, parallel universe where up is down, left is right, backwards is forwards, black is white, and day is night.... yet you are still you, and i am still me, and the earth still spins. we start with a premise and end with a lesson learned. or atleast that's how it's supposed to happen...or not? like that fleeting memory you always get when you read something you wrote a long time ago. like realizing it was really nothing to begin with.

where i was, that was just a made up place in my mind. where i am now... same thing, i guess. but at least it doesn't get too dark these days. that or maybe my eyes have just adjusted. time to absorb. time to dream away this imaginary coma. i see good things coming.