(0222) perception equation

death whispers before we can even stand to wake up. told you i'm sorry in my mind a million times but it still will never matter. they say we're so different, but that's how they want it to be. i do have to say, i miss the feeling i could get just by drinking mountain dew and rolling down the windows. didn't they say that immediacy would never last? three down and three to go. i wish. heart beating to the drums of change. and i guess the static just never filtered its way through.

entrenched in the fog of youth, i was there alone. we all were there alone. and even though we'd silently shout out as loud as possible, it still made no difference. just pass the vodka onto the next person and let it soak up our thirst. one can rust away, but i'd rather evolve even if i'm going nowhere.

for the end that's not in sight, i don't want to be told the usual lies. i don't want some nice, old man to give me his outdated advice. for the beginning i can't remember, i want the past to be the past. i want that old house that we lived in to be burned down to dust and ash. but tomorrow... tomorrow i'll wait for just one more chance to fill up my plate. and this just goes on and on and on.

defaced by a sentence and ran away.

(0221) triple black

got my eyes set on some technology. wishing i can set them on reality. i'll waste all kinds of money because of my greed. and then i'll disappear again right after the scene. but the last thing i need is a new disguise. besides, i can only hide until the next sunrise. there's really no point if i can't play me because i can't memorize all those lines i'd have to read. just trying to get used to this pair of shoes... they're all i have now, and we all hate to lose. but everyone's gotta get out once in a while. get away from all these lonely unwalked miles.

i bleed all potential and fade away from the ugly canvass of yesterday. gotta lose these whiskers before its time for play. never know if its gonna be you today. but i need all i can to keep me going, and i need all i can to keep from going. if the movie gets boring before it even ends, we'll have to die now, and later, we'll have to be born again.

so the starting line's the same as the finish line. how perfect is that when i'm gonna lose my mind? i put some music on to make me calm... but it always comes late, and it takes too long. and no one wants to walk without a friend. no one wants to walk without their friends. and now i keep my distance, and i stay in my yard. i keep my distance, but i'm never too far. so all i need now is some flavored ice-cold beer. gotta leave soon and conquer these fears.