(0242) day of reckoning

i tore my skin off, and it didn't matter. the starlight disappears. i shake. chained up to my own mind and a dissipated heart. full of fear. i can't breathe. i can't see. swallow down the lies i shouldn't have told myself. the tired, aching voice of my whispers.

so instinctive...
feed the weakness...
connect the dots to find... a broken wish inside.
the tires come off the car. the face regains its scars.
a new song in the dark. it's not heard. it's not felt.

my false gods - they fucked me over.

so distracted...
a chemical reaction...
a silent confession. we all walk until we're dead.
the wheels fall off the cart. the face sees all its marks.
a new song in the sky. i'm falling from too high.

i can't go in. too afraid to see that cute grin. the angel in her trance. a victim of her circumstance. i look away way too fast. get lost inside her ugly past. a tiny voice inside. a broken wish i can't hide.

i wake up. i wake up. slowly.
i stand up. i stand up. lonely.
i fall down. i fall down... face first.
i put on. i put on... that blue shirt.
i'm bleeding. i'm bleeding. secretly.
i'm leaving. i'm leaving. empty.