(0266) the silence of a stare pt. 1

the train wheel pulls my apathy even as the grass turns green; take all the pills they give to help me live. sleep is all that comforts me. nervous side effects and allergies - i'm out of breath before i even start to walk. a backwards conversation leaves the reasons hanging in the air and leaves me in the silence of that stare. i live inside a vacancy. i don't see them, but they see me. repetition is my faint disease.

no one knows, and no one will ever know, but ain't that the beauty in me and you?
we disagree to the degrees of leaving the rest up to clouds and trees.

i've been displaced in modern time. my life and death will be made of rhymes cascading down to an ocean mist. i wanted what i couldn't have. i never really noticed that nothing ever took the place of youth. electricity never bothered me... but this time, it didn't help. i woke up next to fragments of a mother's voice that echoed through my head.