(0267) fade away

it's hard to say. it's hard to explain exactly why i feel half insane.
i've lost my truth. i've lost my way while existing the same from night to day.

there's no reason for the season.
i'm still scared of what i believe in.
2107 n. kenneth and the orange lights i still remember
the metal detector, the computers, and the keyboard
and the basement with the green floor.

am i not here? are you like me?
more paranoid by my unfelt and unseen reality.
how do you come to terms with loss?
i guess my spoiled heart is what it costs.

i'm lost in time. addicted to youth.
experiencing depersonalization with nothing to prove.
confusion rules. attention span is totally gone.
it's too bad i'd be seen as wrong.

i've known silence more than you will ever know yourself.
i'm observing more than you will ever see. woe is me.

existence kills all that's alive. hypnotic trance; can't close my eyes.