(0268) i love you

a shaking hand with no direction...
a voice you hear without inflection...
i wake up every morning caught up in my misery.
the water from the shower flows
down my skin; between my toes,
but i'm too numb to feel it anyway...
i've never been sidelined like this before.

the chemicals inside my head...
they're all confused, and i still feel dead...
now, i can't ever see your face again.
green grass and a sky of blue...
sanity held together by super glue
and a piece of youth that's never coming back again.

and if we knew each other then,
we'd understand all the sand moving through an hourglass.
and if we felt each other's burns,
we'd understand all the water flowing through all the earth.

fragmented on the other side of the screen...
constantly analyzing what i'm seeing...
ice-cold fingers type this out as i'm glancing at the clock.
cell phone silence - this is why.
i had to leave without goodbye.
can't return to what was never there.

i love you.