(0271) eight seconds gone and eight remaining

the longest distance between our voices. a million shades of what you hear is not what i saw. i watched you falling down the staircase that i had climbed several times but only in my mind. i know we never squared out our wayward destiny. there was so much i couldn't predict. blue eyes falter. blue eyes don't forget. make love and go shopping for what's neat. your disease is what you want it to be. drink coffee. get seen. be hip. go green. wear makeup. hide true beauty all because you can't even see.

eight seconds gone and eight remaining. this is the time that i pretend to follow. a lonely dog with only instinct.

a shallow vein to fill. i wake up and smile back at my happy pills. understand. understood. throw away the bad and try to keep the good. if only we could be like them. if only.