(0310) erasing your face

i'm coming up in smoke rings. i can't control things so i'm detaching your beautiful wings. i'm writing. i'm barely eating. i'm just arriving, and i'm not leaving. i'm falling. i'm calling your name out. there's no doubt.
there's no doubt.

i'm erasing your face from this building. i'm so uptight, and now i'm just anticipating it.
you disappear. i see death. i see darkness. i see nothing holding me together.
this weather isn't getting better. i'm not sending letters.
i fucked up.
you fucked up.
i laugh out loud and ignore the crowd.

i'm surfacing and floating away.
i wish you would stay, but i don't think it'll happen.
it never works out this way.

i'm long gone. i'm reading all i can, but the reasons are fleeting.
nothing makes sense except for this. does this even exist? i doubt it.
i doubt it.