(0386) canceled out

saturday, the debt was paid off and all was equal. vicious instinct was floating away but had other ideas.
instrinsic to only you, and no one else needs to know.
forgot about the dead leaves while shuffling through photos. just something you imagined.
a sharper knife could've done the trick, but common sense is scarce in these regions.
we collect our pennies and leave our thoughts behind.
tell me to believe in fate but you'll pray to your god in times of desperation.. which happen to be all too often.
ten days of this and i've just about gone numb. come back here just to retract my previous statements.
was it all a dream? it is all a dream. why would you wanna wake up early?

forget about it. i've forgotten.

(0385) water

the anticipation corrupted what was innocent and, now, this is as calm as you'll ever be. you perceived yourself as tuning in and out of some imagined static, and then it was gone before you could even fire off the neurons to change the situation.

this was always a waste of something that didn't exist.
saliva and electricity i passed on through a pointless kiss..
with memories now turning into a pile of shit.

you became the match that i wanted to light,
but i got tired of trying and going to bed empty every night.
i'm actually glad things kept going faster and faster.
all of that smoke is just filled with cancer.

i fell asleep for 8 years and woke up from a nightmare that left me dizzy and sick to my stomach. all i can think about now is warmth because i know what it feels like to be cold, and it's not pleasant.

i have become water, and i'll flow wherever the wind takes me... and i'm ready now because i've finally realized that nothing ever changes... and how beautiful that really is.