(0385) water

the anticipation corrupted what was innocent and, now, this is as calm as you'll ever be. you perceived yourself as tuning in and out of some imagined static, and then it was gone before you could even fire off the neurons to change the situation.

this was always a waste of something that didn't exist.
saliva and electricity i passed on through a pointless kiss..
with memories now turning into a pile of shit.

you became the match that i wanted to light,
but i got tired of trying and going to bed empty every night.
i'm actually glad things kept going faster and faster.
all of that smoke is just filled with cancer.

i fell asleep for 8 years and woke up from a nightmare that left me dizzy and sick to my stomach. all i can think about now is warmth because i know what it feels like to be cold, and it's not pleasant.

i have become water, and i'll flow wherever the wind takes me... and i'm ready now because i've finally realized that nothing ever changes... and how beautiful that really is.